I haven really been bothering myself with this blog because life is too busy for me. Everything have changed. I hope everything have changed for the better? For the past 1 year, I have been trying my best to change for the better? Of course, not arguing so much with my mother because I might drive her crazy one day. Still haven managed to change things with my brother, maybe really CMI. I am sorry but this would be super wordy because I am basically going to summaries everything that have been happening for the past one year here! (: please bear with me. 

April - buddy's 21st, still couldn't forget the self made cake for her birthday which was damn super delicious!(:Hopes she is still reading this because this would surely make her day (once in a lifetime she make sure delicious cake! HAHAHAHA!) 

 May - babylove's 21st @ Coasta Sands, booked a family suite to celebrate his 21st which initially he did not want to. Make for him a fishing fondant cake with rainbow inside and thanks for everyone who made it. It was an awesome las vegas party!(: 

June/July/Aug - everything was usual. Worked worked worked and worked.. June marks one year working inside Qi Mantra Pte Ltd, promoted and yes, I am working as a manager right now, but things is really getting tougher and tougher! :( I would hang in there though!! 

 Sept - my turn to finally turn 21! Awesome party sponsored by my family! helium balloons everywhere, awesome DJs and Emcee! cannot forget how much fun I had that night and really thank everyone who made things possible that night especially, my parents, aunt, bf, sis, bro, and alvin & suzana! love all of you!! (pics are already up inside my FB!) 

OCTOBERRRR - 3rd year anniversary. Went thru so much ups and downs, really come so far!!^^ Thank you for everything that you have done for me be it small or big, and thank you for all the super expensive present. Our 3rd year anniversary present was something that I longed for and I got it the moment it was release! - Samsung Galaxy Note 2! Thanks for loving me so much and although we had those unhappy times, but I am glad that we both hang in there! love you honey! 

Dec -CHRISTMAS!! (best christmas present was the Chanel bag that I have always wanted from love!! Yipeeeee, I love him max! HAHAHAHA!) & Annabelle & Tony's wedding. They finally tie the knot! hahaha! I waited since 4 years ago when I know them and Congratulations to you two! Hope you all liked everything we have done for you two that night! have babies soon! They will be my niece and nephews! hahahahahaha!(: 

Jan - Alvin's 22nd birthday, one of my best bro. Celebrated in a different way because my "boss" said that he wants to give him a treat, went to sentosa marine life park, lunch at wine company and then movie! FULL DAY EVENT HOR! damn super tiring.. But I am glad that we all enjoyed ourselves and happy birthday again bro! 

Feb - This month. CNY. Valentine's day CNY routine have always been the same, grandma house, bf house, aunt's house, gamble gamble and more gambling. However this valentine's day is super special, love came to fetch me at 1.30pm? Waited for me to prepare and we headed to PS, ate Swesens for lunch, shopping shopping and more shopping, he drove me to Vivocity because Tangs got some close door sales, went in to buy Chanel skin care products and also make up. I have been spending so much on Chanel. Before we ended our day of Valentine, I was already in bed, getting ready to sleep at 10plus because need to work today, then love came to my place with a bouquet of pink roses!! damn sweet! He sure knows how to coax his babygirl and I tell you, this is why, I have always loved him! LOL!! 

I have finished with this super wordy post, and I really hope I could come back here and blog more often. HAHAHA! Happy New Year everyone and hope this would be a fabulous year for all of us ahead!(:

Yupp, I guess my title says it all and there is nothing much I can really do.
I am beginning to hate my family more and more.. They just fucking give me the feeling that I am nothing but a walking ATM whereby they can collect money promptly every month and they don’t fucking bother if you ever have enough money for yourself.. I practically just work for the sake of being able to give them enough money to buy this and that, to allow them to live a better life when my own life sucks ttm! Think about it, if anyone of you are able to contribute and still live your life everyday without having to worry about money, then please teach me how:

For e.g:
A peanut pay of $2000 per month (after deducting CPF) and these are the things in which your money will go to:
1) Monthly income to the family - $800
2) Phone bill monthly - $80(Maximum?)
3) Monthly insurance for your parents - $29.90 each (*2 = approx. $60)
4) Monthly insurance for yourself - $30
5) Quarterly income tax - $60
6) Every few months need to buy make up - $100 - $150
7) Clothes? - $100

So, if you take $2000 to minus all the above shits, you are left with $970 or lesser for the rest of the month of 31 days whereby daily expenses are not included (like your meals, your transport e.g)
On top of all those, in that month if you have friend’s birthday or parent’s birthday or whatever fucking special occasions, how much you need to give? ($100 - $200) otherwise your relatives and friends would call you fish or NIAO in Chinese!

So, all in all, how much do I really get to use or spend? I work for so many damn years but haven even save a single shit! They say I like to spend money, spendthrift, but HELLO~~ with all the above, do I even get to save?! They just never know! One day, I think I will just walk out of this house and be fucking heartless to ask them to pay me back all the money one shot which I have contributed to the house! Don’t tell me your son contributed $10K by borrowing from whoever, I don’t care because 3 years of working and contributing is already 3x of what he have been doing for the family!

Whatever I want, I have to buy on my own, my iphone, my laptop etc, then what about my sister? My mum and sis wants a iphone, straight they sign, even without thinking whose fucking money they are using and they cannot learn to save and can spend anyhow WHILE I HAVE TO LEARN TO SAVE?! WHAT BULLSHIT?!

Seriously, enough.. I am getting the hell out of this place! I will rent a flat outside at most! Im not afraid that I cannot survive!

871 days with love! - 20032012

Tomorrow marks 871 days ever since I am with love..
It seems damn bloody long but it also seems short, We been thru really a lot of happiness, quarrels, fights, argues, laughter, rubbish, retards etc etc.., It really makes both our lives just so different. I know how much we mean to each other in our lives even thought most of the time, we dont really talk about it..


Well, apart from love life, glad to say I am officially promoted to becoming a Manager?
But at least at the age of **, I have already made a difference in my life? or career life? I just hope that I can continue to do well in work, work hard, the higher I climb, the more money I get/earns (hopefully)?
My bf always often tells me this person is not work type, is play type, I am the work type and tends to compare other people with me(in a good way).. But, damn stress! Because everybody sees you doing so well, just so well, you cannot afford to fall.. Cannot afford to lose a step and fall all the way down to the bottom, is this what people call being competitive? or just practically giving myself way too much stress? lols! If you ask me, perhaps my answer for you would be, I have a family to feed and I need to work, not harder, but triple hard so that my family would not suffer? Tell me which kid at my age would be giving half of your salary among to their family? unfortunately, it just happens to me ): Sometimes I just feel that I dont have a life! seriously, I hates it really a lot sometimes too! but that's my life i guess? admit it man Winnie... Im a walking ATM for my family! LOLS..

right, enough of work and love life..
I do miss all my old pals at times, is either they have no time to meet me, or I got no time for them! LOLS..
Too busy with things! I need to get a proper lifestyle! I wanna lakopi with all my pals laaaaa!
till then...

okay! I know that my blog is almost dead, seriously, at times I really don't know the reason why I would ever want to blog. Perhaphs its because I wanted to save memories in which I can look back probably a few years from now and go and think about how stupid things used to be and how stupid I have behaved? lols!
I love to say that life have been really good for me except those things which I have seen them as "ruining" my life in the past as to "being used to it" now in my life :D - I know, it's chimalogy! HAHAHAHAS!

been really good for the past month?
I guess I have been saying that I am busy with my work, busy with every single thing, and I realised that there are certain things in life which I don't find them bothering anymore and I guess each of us have their own ways or rather own plans for life? Sometimes I wish... I could turn back the clock and make up for certain things which I know till today, it still is.......etched. I don't know why I can never move on and stop thinking about what happened in the past and regrets things that happened when everyone else could do the same thing but not me? Like wasting my time in the past for stupid things rather than concentrating on my studies? or political issues? (okay, its having politics in schools and stuffs?) everything is damn childish to me.. at least I realised it now? lols!

forget about those things!(:
I have a wish list to complete before Christmas and I hope this Christmas would be a different one, would give me a new life without having to think about all those things, able to completely forget them? - till then....
everyday would still be the same for me as long as there is him(: Christmas and new year's resolution will all come together soon(:

& oh! ALVIN & THE CHIPMUNKS 3 IS SO DAMN AWESOME!(: WATCH IT WATCH IT!!**




to love is, forgive without punishing, promise without forgetting.

I got to say; I am not a good owner, I neglected my blog! I guess spent too much time working and accompanying my bf at the same time -.-"

Anyways, Heres a update of what have been happening in my life ever since the last time I have been blogging..
OCT - awesome month, filled with busy days, busy meet ups, busy planning and organizing people's 21st Bday. And I have got to say, my cousin's 21st birthday was GREAT!~
2 years of ups and downs with the one I love and those special surprises, I would never forget!(:

Nov 05 - Suzana's 21st Birthday(just in case you are wondering who is she, she is Alvin's gf..)
Damn fun, because there are a lot of people! like the whole chalet flooded with people.. Gave a LONGCHAMP bag as her 21st bday gift and really glad to hear that she loves it(: Although its nothing really costly, but I think its the thought that counts? teehee!

Nov 06 onwards, work work work and work(:
Celebrated Adrian's birthday pathetically at the street soccer court with love, bought him a birthday cake and all photos are up on fb! They actually ram-ed him with the soccer boy! hahaha! I was hoping that he would simplyy just get whacked 20times in the face la! LOLS... just kidding!!

did my massage, and my beautiful nails. Nails have been changing every month! Haha! I am so damn in love with gelish nails right now, I will show you all the photos soon? Hopefully I can post them on fb and show you all!(: I checked thru my schedule everytime when people wanna meet up with me, because every minute of them is damn super precious to me!! HAHAHA! like some business woman ya? I also think so, but my life like different leh!

upcoming - USS!! YAYEE!! 2D1N STAY AT HARD ROCK HOTEL TOO!! YAYEEEEE(:
Finally on leave to enjoy myself ttm!! But the saddest thing is I am becoming a nanny for the upcoming week! OMG~ somebody please save me!!


p.s: I enjoy myself whenever i am with you, I hope you are enjoying your time with me too..