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Tuesday, January 13, 2009

peak a boo!((:
ytd was the release of the GCE 'O' Levels results,although i was really disappointed by the kind of results i have actually obtained..but then wats done can never be undone le..hais!actually,could have done better de,why do our batch having the F-ing moderation due to one person who cheated in the exams?!

i have seriously disappointed my parents and alot of people,the paper was easy,but why the whole lot of sec 5s majority din do well???we were told that our papers were moderated,but wat the F?!isnt it VERY unfair to us?!because of one freaky ASAPH HO!i really want to apologise to my parents for wasting their lives on me,wasting the sum of money to put me thru school..i really feel very very useless la!!!why must i disappoint them when i could have scored better?!IM SORRY DADDY MUMMY..at this point in time,i really dunno whether to continue pursuing my studies or jus to stop right here?i have the tenancy to re-take my maths,but im really afraid i would jus waste one whole entire year and in the end getting the same results!!wat should i do??

im currently working at MOOD DESIGN as a sales designer/interior designer.
Though im working,but im on profit sharing,which means,if i dun have any deals,i wont get any incomes!
i yearn sooo much to let my parents enjoy life,dun have to work sooooo freaking hard to pay for all the retarded bills and also have to make sure we wont go on hunger.at times,i dunno wats the use of me being in this world with this kind of freaking results..i really hope............i would have fared better!!if im given a second chance to re-take my mathematics,i will put in double the efforts and i make sure i get the hang of it,i make sure i score at least an B3!!I hope,i wont disappoint my parents again and i really want to prove to them that i have wat it takes,but its jus not my year,due to someone who have cheated in the exams!IM TERRIBLY SORRY DAD AND MUM,SORRY THAT YOU ALL HAVE WASTED 5 ENTIRE YEARS OF MONEY ON MY EXAM FEES AND MY SCHOOL FEES IN EXCHANGE FOR SUCH HORRIBLE AND TERRIBLE RESULTS..I KNOW HOW USELESS I AM,ALL IM HOPING NOW IS TO EARN MORE MONEY FOR YOU ALL TO SPEND,I WILL CHANGE FOR THE BETTER AFTER THIS INCIDENT DE..PLS FORGIVE ME FOR NOT PERFORMING WELL!SORRY!!)):

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