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i swear i will hate you
Tuesday, April 28, 2009

i dunno why you must be like this.
i dunno why im treated like this.
i dunno why you must said words which you shouldnt.
im lost.
a lost sheep.
anyone can insult me.
but, you were a great disappointment.
i swear, i will never forget wat happened.
haiishs.
i guess im damn sway,
ytd had a terrible night.
today morning, my house here got people committed sucide.
its a indian lady,
i dunno why she wanna jump off the building for,
some more, its infront instead of jumping off from the kitchen.
i saw her body,
her head hits the drain and alot of blood.
police came,
covered up her body.
nosy reporters were also there.
i din stay there to watch cause need go to work.
but i really dunno why she wanna jump off.
no matter how stress,
life still gonna carry on.
why must she chose this path for herself?
heard from my sister that the police called her family,
they din wan the reporters to come and interview them.
they never even go and see her body.
its really very scary.
i hope people around me wont.
because, life is really short.
must really cherish, you would not know, who would go the next minute.
i feel very sorry for the lady.
i saw her body,
i din know how to react.
but shook my head,
cause.......
its really a pity.
she stays same level as me,im on one end, she is on the other.
she went up to 14th floor to jump.
i guess, she is under alot of stress.
haiishs.
in life,
i regretted alot of things.
i regretted being who i am.
looking back,
im really stupid.
im cheated?
i really dunno how to explain how i feel now.
because,
IM UTTERLY LOST....
I LOST TO YOU!
DEFEATED.

I went off @ 12:42 PM