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very very very tired
Thursday, September 17, 2009

life for me is really very tiring,
i have to balance my work with all the friendships/relationship thingy which i have encounter or people around me have encountered.

frankly speaking, im really very tired,
amanda and raymond kept having their conflicts, then the stupid FCC lady boss and the stupid TOM BOY manager just kept picking on me because the sales person there kept talking to me, and i think they should be damn jealous la, cause none of them there likes the way they do things and i also dun wanna say so much to interfer with their issues.

i think its never right or should say as i do not have the rights to talk so much neither do i have the rights to comment so much.
Lao da left the company le,
we are one man down now.
just like a soccer match, our player has gotten a red card, and has to leave us.
another issue is about my BGR, currently, in a great big messy situation.
im sure many of you would wonder why would i suddenly break off with wenghong and kept quiet,
actually i did not kept quiet,
its just that i am too busy buzzy with my work, hence i let go.
really tired and sick of arguing with him or quarrelling with him over wats wrong or wats right.

from all these incident, i guess, i have really grown up.
this society is really very scary.
people whom seems to be harmless could even be the one whom harms you in the end.
i know how unhappy lao da is over how boss handles this issue this afternoon and he really has a lot to say.
but the fact lies infront of us that the market is really very bad now, everyone is trying their best.
the time is just so not right that ended up with this conclusion.
after hearing wat the both of them has got to say, i really wonder, am i capable enough to help Ethan grow?
or should i say that if i do not have the confidence, who else will now in this situation?

birthday is just in few days time,
dun have the time to celebrate because im really tie down with work and i wanna work everything nicely and also with system.
i hope this would be the only way whereby i can help boss relieve her stress and maybe burden.
im turning 18.
and i believe i should know how to think by now, tried to change my attitude towards my family and now i find it much easier to blend into them instead of shouting and arguings with them all day long which would make me more tired.
as for that special someone whom might not be able to read my blog even,
i just wan you to know that the greatest happiness that would ever come into my life,
is the smile on your face.
whether or not you believe me, i have nvr doubt you. im willing to trust you, but now, everything depends on you.
you can be cold to me, but at least i wanna know the real reason why.
behind everything.
at least i would admit defeat after i know wat happen or where have i gone wrong.

lastly, winnie will always stay strong, so, should you((:
nites world((:

I went off @ 11:56 PM