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Thursday, October 15, 2009

march09
the day he is going into army,
lucky thing was that he was direct admission to POLICE force instead of army and have to have intensive training for 8 weeks because he din get silver for NAFA. -_-
first 10 days, i supposed he also wont be coming out le.
initially, was still rather okays with him going into the police because at least, the earlier he goes in, the earlier he comes out.
but today which i HATE!
someone by the bloody idiotic name, YONG XIANG.
he also going into the police force same time, same date, same place, same training everything the same as him.
worried that the bloody bastard would teach him the wrong things, and influence him to smoke or watsoever.
that bastard actually still have the bloody cheek to sit INFRONT of ME. and ACTED as though NOTHING happened!

if i wasnt worried,
i wouldnt even bother thinking of whether he would teach you this and that,
if i dun care,
i would not have tell you SO SO SO SO MUCH.
you mean alot, thats why i dun wish anybody to harm you or bring harm to you,
why cant you just understand my intention? you have to misunderstood me?
i know watever i say are like rubbishs to you,
but I MEANT WELL.
because you isnt me, thats why you cant feel the anxiousness in me.
you think i hope that you would booked in with this kind of PEOPLE?
i know i dun have a choice, but its hard to accept,yet you cant even give me time to.
everything seems so wrong i guess,
im sorry, thats really how i felt.
its not that i dun trust you,
is i know that under this kind of things, its really hard to control.
maybe, you just dunno why i cared so much.
one day, you will.
im just doing my part to tell you and guide you along the correct path, i wont force you till your end road.
but there are really certain frens which i know that you can make frens with or not.
YONG XIANG is surely not one good fren.
he would only led you astray!
you know anot? because i have seen it for myself his personality, thats why i dare to tell you that he is NOT a good fren.
trust me, no gf would wan her own bf to know this kind of frens de!
haiishs. ni jiu shi bu ming bai.

*sighs*

I went off @ 12:39 AM