<body> -learn to love myself more than anything- <body>
Saturday, October 17, 2009

simply no mood.
i wanted SO SO SO SO much to post all the happy things that have happened with you.
but everything seemed to just crashed into pieces when msges aft msges comes.
i dunno how to explain how i felt,
maybe i was too sensitive, but it nvr felt good.
really it doesnt, it does not mean that i dun really mind, means i will feel nth.
i wanted so much to tell you how i feel,
but i know, things will end up with a quarrel,
im swallowing everything myself because i rather i suffer alone than we two((:
its not that everytime we are like this,
everything come at the wrong timing,
im not used to your life yet bahs.
because u feel that is they msg you first, and its nothing, then im sorry, because i cannot take it.
one day, when you really love me like mad, you will know wat im referring to, and how i really felt.
actions always speaks louder than words de,
if your actions shows me, naturally i will not react this way, its no point kept telling me the same old thing.
or maybe, its just the way you are the past one year plus, and its time for me to get use to it, its time for me to change to be able to blend better into your life?
i really dunno.
things are getting bad for me at work lately,
even now, my rs also like shit,
i still got alot of things haven settle,
i just hoped for you to be there, to understand, and also to let me pour all my sorrows in.
work is really killing me le, i dun wan another killer thing.
please understand, or to say, i beg you to understand)):

goodbyee, and i love you.

I went off @ 11:39 PM