<body> -learn to love myself more than anything- <body>
Friday, October 23, 2009

went to work as usual today,
love also went to help his parents work.
after his work, he went back to bathe le, came to find me liao.
then peii me to play pool again until now then i came home, although i got work tml, but i really enjoy those times with him.
he never neglects me or leave me alone de.
really am blessed**
he is always thinking about me first, before himself.

coincidentally, went into his facebook,
because i wanted to take his account to play the stupid poker.
scrolled down the profile,
saw that E's bday is this saturday, and i also heard from him that he saturday not free,
going out with friends,
dunno if its going with E, my heart just cant keep forgetting about this matter.
im not angry, i just felt scared.
this is the first ever time, i felt so so so scared that i feel like crying.
has their rs ended?
or are they still as close as ever?
i really dun have the energy to anyhow think le,
sick,
tonnes of work loads, until i wanna give up my work le.
everything i do at work seems to be wrong lately,
how i wish i can quit, and enjoy relaxing myself.
but, love, i really dunno how to open my mouth to talk about this,
i dun wanna cry after talking bout E.
am i being too sensitive or thinking far too much?
i dunno if you and E still gonna have part II anot,
but im really scared.
i guess, you will never ever know this feeling de.
because i dunno how to tell you.
wo zhen de hen hai pa shi qu ni!
please tell me that this saturday is not going with E, or celebrating with her!
please please please tell me that.
i really cant sleep.

why i choose to think so much?
why i choose to believe wat i have seen?
why?......

I went off @ 1:32 AM