seriously, sometimes i hate god, i hate to admit to fate, to destiny.
i hate to admit that my parents are like that.
i dunno how to go about explaining wat had happened just now, all i know was
my parents are fcuking unreasonable.
wat have i offended them in life, or in my previous life?
they are so fcuking bias! my brother did not give a single cent to the family, contributing nothing, not a cent,
after POP, he asked my parents for money, for $50, or more, they will just give.
then wat bout me? is this even fair?! i gave allowance every month,
but where have all those money gone to?
when i cared for them, they have never praised me for anything.
never in their entire life, they have ever praise me! whether i did well, did perfectly well,
i WAS NEVER PRAISED.
yet when my brother did well, my mum would go around telling everyone how well he did etc etc.
are girls so so useless?
have i been born the wrong sex? should i be male instead of female?!
im lost.
do i deserve better treatments than this?
i should be praised! i should be the better one!
but it doesnt seem so.
giving money to brother is because he worked very hard in NS,
hence when he comes out, i have to give in?!
din i worked hard enough to help support the family?!
wat is fcuking wrong with them? who will ever know how i feel in the family.
i hate to call myself, MISS NG! i rather being MRS TAN.
i hope to leave this home as soon as i can, i hope to marry off this minute! i dun need your support, but you need!
without me, you all can cope with the expenses at home!?
use your brains! I HATE YOU ALL. cant you all just take a minute to know more, to understand more bout me?!
im nobody's child.
picked up from rubbish chute.