its really tired till i dun even have time to update my blog.
sales party is round the corner,
need to practice for the performance.
things isnt going smooth for me & him, because now i hardly have spare time for him.
he has also been selected for the NDP2010 & YOG 2010, need MILLIONS of extra drillings & trainings, which even make time for this relationship even lesser.
i used to talk to him over the phone for dunno how many hours before i would bear to sleep.
but now, we hardly spoken for even an hour, because we are both tired. sorry for the only word to compensate for the time not given. At times, im really annoyed but all these & were even wishing to put everything to a FULL STOP.
but still, i cant bear to.
i opened up my heart & told him how i felt yesterday.
i dunno if things will ever change, but i just wanna say that with a job like mine, i still have to balance my relationship & work, try not to put work attitude & temper into this relationship isnt easy man!
it takes BILLIONS of effort to get it done & i really hope you can see it.
im really tired out with all the arguments and all the sickening attitude & unhappiness in this.I would rather give everything up than getting this everyday.
because you isnt me, thats why you will never know how it feels when you have to balance both & yet you keep making mistakes at work.
my work place is a place filled with traps & its something im aware of.
there is nobody you can trust only yourself.
everytime people make a mistake, i happen to take over that matter, i got blamed for everything!
and when i questioned the person who made the mistake, they just pushed the blame!
hey come on! i have ENOUGH! enough of all your sickening pushing of the blames & trying to act as if you know everything when you know even lesser than i do!
dun bother asking me who is it, because i will never say. IM TIRED MAN!
is either i give up either one, or both-thats the best ending!
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