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Monday, June 28, 2010

why is it that everything i do is wrong while everything other ppl do is right?
why is it that when i ask, when i am supposed to be the victim, became the killer?
if you were me, what would your answer to my questions for you?
i hope to make things better, but i always seems to make things worse.
if trust were the word, how much do you trust me?

ada & chris spoke to me today,
they told me that at times, when he do not want to tell you things,
doesnt means that he is trying to keep it from you,
it would mean that he din put it to heart hence he din wanna say/maybe its too hard for him to say, and knowing that it would turned up intoa quarrel, he chose not to say.
sometimes, guys do not like girls to be very smart.
but i am not those kind who can treat it as if nothing happened when in actual fact, something did happened!
i dunno how, can anybody teach me?
i know i take things really very hard, i cant seemed to forget about all the unhappy stuffs or nasty words ppl put across to me instantly, i need time.
everyone told me to believe him & trust is the word.
is either i trust him or i dun.

but,do i?
sometimes, running away from problems isnt the right way to solve things.
but i chose to run away
yet when im home,
history repeats itself again,
my mother just kept repeating the scene and is so afraid that if he got another girl, i cant take it.
what should i do?
i dunno why when i used to trust him, now i cant.
i really can see him changing. i dunno whether he really loves me anot now because everything seems to be changing, or am i thinking too much like what vivien said?

god! im really lost!

I went off @ 11:30 PM