<body> -learn to love myself more than anything- <body>
12 hours
Sunday, November 7, 2010

i guess, its been more than 12 hours i last seen you.
if i tell you that i miss you, will you believe? will you stop everything that you are doing to look at me?
its not, really not i dun wan let you have your freedom, or being with your friends, is, everytime with them, i am always the last! THE LAST. always forgotten! like what you promised, by 1am you will be back, now is 12.56am, yet i cant feel your soul, neither your heart.

you made me really tired and sick of PROMISES.
i seriously found no meaning in telling me things which you are unable to fulfill.

hubby, i did my best le.
i did everything i could to make us happy.
yet again, i failed.
i failed entirely, utterly as a gf.
when i have no means to quarrel, you will feel that i am trying to quarrel.
i packed my room, put all our photos to give you a sweet surprise, but you wasnt here to seem them.
i spent $200+ just buying the slimming products because of words you said.
everything you said, you did, remains inside my heart vividly.
i never show actions doesnt means i dun feel a thing!
i have feelings, i am sensitive to yours, how about yours to mine?

i know it takes two hands to clap.
i could blamed nobody for what i am getting today,
could only blame myself why i wasnt able to cherish you right from the start.
i deserve what i am getting today.
you know things are all no longer the same.
i dunno how to tell you how scary and fierce you are, even my colleagues all mentioned that.
what has becoming to you?
is everything my fault that i made you into this?
what else can i do to make up for all the past mistakes and beg you to stop treating me like this?
am i not comparable to your friends?

i have done everything i could,
but how come i dun get what i wanted?
must i really give up then i will get what i want?
must i totally hack care?
please tell me what to do! i am lost! i kept thinking you opened the door of mine, but you din! its 1.03am, i am still alone! why?

终于说出口

I went off @ 12:54 AM