<body> -learn to love myself more than anything- <body>
Saturday, March 5, 2011

when fishing became more important than me,
have you cared about how i really felt?
ask yourself, everytime when i am with you, is there ever once you wont talk about fish?see about fish?buy about fish things? even we go PS, you also insist to go diaso to see your fish thing.

can you just stop pushing the blames all to me for once?
i am really tired eh.. even if it is your temper's prob, your attitude prob, will ended up being my fault.
you need my attention, then what about me?being with me 24/7 isnt about giving me your attention okays? i cared about you, but sometimes ended up tio scolded with vulgarities by you..
when you are bored, ask yourself, what would be the thing you would love to do with me?
when i never meant anything as quarrels, you would think that i am trying to pick a fight, even simple thing like asking you not to scold vulgarities infront of my neighbours or even ppl whom we dunno because i hate ruining images, i hate those stares from people, i hate people gossiping, but yet, you feel that i am picking a fight with you.

sometimes, i really dunno what you want.
you hate me throwing the ring away or taking them out and returning them to you,
then have you cared about how i felt?
you know very well that i hate ppl messing around with my winnie the pooh, be it whoever, i will be angry and even cry.
even my colleague whom i told her only once, she could rmb. then why not you?
you know winnie the pooh is my life, yet you still throw, kick,whack.
its not more impt than you, but it is equally impt!

if you want me to understand you~
i can, but who can understand me?
i scold my sister because she seriously need to be taught the right way, even if i shout at her everyday, scold her everyday, she is still like that. skip schools, slacking ard after sch, results like shit, teacher complain. typical ahlian, but in your eyes, all i know is how to kpkb.
i meant well for people in another way, yet nobody knows~ even my own boyfriend actually supports other ppl more than me!
i need his advices, all he tell me is anything anything. you were never serious when it comes to my things, but when its yours, you expect me to give you GOOD answers, exact answers.
i really feel damn contradict.
i never treat you like dog, you say i have, i really dunno what the hell i am doing! everything i do is wrong wrong wrong & wrong~
i feel really terrible you know?!
i dun even feel like a human being!
i just keep doing the wrong things!
even when i felt that it is right, it is still wrong!
why?!!

I went off @ 4:08 PM