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Thursday, August 4, 2011

Hi there,

The history repeats itself again.
I told dad today about the money issues which have always been a issue, yet he flar up(as usual) and became total insane which apparently, he doesn't listens to anything I say -.-"
Why is it that adults all can't or rather dunno how to be rational? I mean, I am just telling him about my difficulties about money and that I need extra cash with me to save up for certain things and can't really give him much... Oh come on! dear dad, its not as if I am not giving you a single cent which I can see for myself that in this home, I am just being used for.. Nobody truly appreciates my pressence. So can anyone tell me, what's the point in contributing somemore? more than anyone else could ever think of!

By contributing to this family doesn't mean that I have owe it to them.
you may be my parents, but the thing is, shouldn't you guys take a step back and see how huge the burden I am carrying now?Everybody works so that they have enough to spend, have extra money for rainy days etc etc, but what about me?
I really have the urge to leave this house, but I know, now isn't the time yet.. Have to wait for love's place to be done before I could move over.. I can't please everybody, neither can anybody have the best of both world, I have to learn to be selfish, have to stop being so filial when nobody appreciates it at all.. They just took me for a ATM ):

They seriously dunno how sad I felt when in their eyes, money is all that matter!
HELLO!! can you all stop being so realistic? is money really everything? with money, doesn't mean you own the entire world, and it does not mean you can buy ALL things with money!
I begin to envy people/you guys out there whom dun have to contribute to the family and can still live happily.. I really am so tired! tired of others before self. Tired of contributing so much over the years!




I need a break......
**seriously a looooooongggggg breakkkkkk, away from the realistic world..

I went off @ 5:32 PM