hellos!!
I am still pretty much alive.. Have been really lazy to post on the blog because my life is just like a drama. Everyday things are going hay wire ): Have finally turned 20 like last month but unhappy thing happened to me on my bday.. lost something precious to me which after that love got me a exact same thing to coax me so that I will not ponder so much over them..
Went to SATA today for the stupid tuberculosis test/checkup, all thanks to the stupid colleague whom is diagnose with it and causing so many inconvenience to us and got jab for nothing -.-" love even cursed me that I would kena TB, so that he can tio quarantine and then MC all the way until ORD! LOLS..
then again.. things also haven been really on the right track with love, but as things are improving, he just have to make me damn upset again... His friend's Bday is this coming Friday, yes, as usual, I would need to work.. 2 different friend and 2 different party done by different group of friends.. I am upset because I dun want him to go drink, go meet his ex-girlfriend, and that girl(H). He never cares about how I will feel.. YES~ I am going out on Friday with my friends too, but at least he can 100% trust me that I will not do anything, but I dunno why I just cant? Am I just being too selfish or am I really so lacking of confidence for myself which it shouldn't be happening!~
Can anyone tell me what I should do right now? Why am I becoming like this? Am I worried that he will just dump me behind again like he have always been doing? Puzzled!!!~ I need a clearer mind right now.. I dun wanna think so much, I will just sleep and hope my heart will feel better and also minimise the quarrels..
love: I hope you see this and really understand how I feel, forgive me for being so no confidence in myself, but please never make me feel so upset and in a dilemma again?
I went off @
11:40 PM
&collecting winnie the pooh((:
photography
animals!
blue.black.white((:
playing sports
Chanels,Gucci,
♥Hermes
♥PRADA
♥heels
♥camera
♥Money!(: